Yesterday, while we sitting at the house recooping from the 2nd Annual Halloween Party, Karson handed me a sheet of computer paper with the following on it:
I'm Thankful For
I am thankful for my mother raising me as I am.
And that she is my mom and she can never change me because I love her.
I am very thankful for who she is and I am very thankful for her to be my mom.
She will always be my mom and I will always be her baby girl.
I LOVE YOU MOM!
Love,
Karson
She's such a sweet girl...I love her with all of my heart!!! She is my world...my entire world!!!
Monday, November 1, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Yummy Goodness...
It's been a while since I last posted...so I thought that I would give yall a treat... Some Yummy Goodness...
Earthquake Cake
1 – Devil’s Food or German Chocolate cake mix
1 – 8 ounce package of cream cheese
1 – box of powdered sugar (2 cups)
1 – stick of butter
Coconut (as much/little as you like)
Chopped pecans (as much/little as you like)
Spray pan with cooking spray (I use fat-free butter flavored…LOL); sprinkle coconut and
pecans in pan; set aside; mix cake mix as it says on box; pour cake mix in pan; mix cream cheese and butter until smooth and creamy; add powdered sugar ¼ cup at a time; mixing well until smooth and creamy; dollop cream cheese mixture on top of cake mix; bake at 350° for 45 – 50 minutes.
It's called an Earthquake cake because when it comes out of the oven, that's what it looks like...LOL...it's cracked and has holes...
I hope you enjoy!!!
Earthquake Cake
1 – Devil’s Food or German Chocolate cake mix
1 – 8 ounce package of cream cheese
1 – box of powdered sugar (2 cups)
1 – stick of butter
Coconut (as much/little as you like)
Chopped pecans (as much/little as you like)
Spray pan with cooking spray (I use fat-free butter flavored…LOL); sprinkle coconut and
pecans in pan; set aside; mix cake mix as it says on box; pour cake mix in pan; mix cream cheese and butter until smooth and creamy; add powdered sugar ¼ cup at a time; mixing well until smooth and creamy; dollop cream cheese mixture on top of cake mix; bake at 350° for 45 – 50 minutes.
It's called an Earthquake cake because when it comes out of the oven, that's what it looks like...LOL...it's cracked and has holes...
I hope you enjoy!!!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
You've Got To Stand For Something by Aaron Tippin
This was one of my dad's favorite songs... I was downloading (okay...my brother-in-law was showing me how to do it...LOL...) songs on to Karson's iTouch for her last night and I had forgotten that when we were doing the music for my dad's funeral that I bought this song on iTunes... It was still sitting in my purchased folder...almost two years later... He and my brother used to listen to this song every day after my brother got off work... He said that this song means something...that it's the way you should be and feel...
Now Daddy didn't like trouble, but if it came along
Everyone that knew him knew which side that he'd be on
He never was a hero, or this county's shinin' light
But you could always find him standing up
For what he thought was right
He'd say you've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what's right and uphold your family name
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
Now we might have been better off or owned a bigger house
If Daddy had done more givin' in or a little more backing down
But we always had plenty just living his advice
Whatever you do today you'll have to sleep with tonight
He'd say you've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what's right and uphold your family name
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
Now I know that things are different than they were in Daddy's days
But I still believe what makes a man really hasn't changed
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what's right and uphold your family name
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
Love you and miss you Daddy...
Love,
Your Peanut
Now Daddy didn't like trouble, but if it came along
Everyone that knew him knew which side that he'd be on
He never was a hero, or this county's shinin' light
But you could always find him standing up
For what he thought was right
He'd say you've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what's right and uphold your family name
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
Now we might have been better off or owned a bigger house
If Daddy had done more givin' in or a little more backing down
But we always had plenty just living his advice
Whatever you do today you'll have to sleep with tonight
He'd say you've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what's right and uphold your family name
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
Now I know that things are different than they were in Daddy's days
But I still believe what makes a man really hasn't changed
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what's right and uphold your family name
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything
Love you and miss you Daddy...
Love,
Your Peanut
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
...TUESDAY...
I have thought all day long that today is WEDNESDAY!!!! Now...my day is crushed...LOL...
Well...it's been a LONG time since I posted anything...I know...but...I felt I needed a little break... PLUS...I had surgery and it put me out of commission for a couple of weeks...
More on my surgery you say... Okay...here goes...
Most of you who read my blog have known me all of my life or, at least, most of it... This is something that I have never been able to talk about...with anyone... As you know, I've ALWAYS been overweight...and five years ago after having that tumor removed, the hormones from trying to get pregnant again and all the other stuff that was going on in our lives...I gained more weight...
I used to be REALLY self-conscious about my weight... I didn't do a whole lot because I was too embarrassed by my weight...and I love(d) my (ex-)husband to death, but it was partially his fault... As you notice, I don't blame him completely...I'm at fault too... BUT...I had a wake up call when we got divorced 3 years ago...i have a whole new meaning in life about me...(please excuse the French)...IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME THE WAY I AM, FUCK YOU, I DON'T NEED YOU IN MY LIFE!!!... So, I started dressing differently...not covering up as much and not wearing clothes that were actually too big for me and made me look bigger... My whole outlook on myself changed...FOR THE BETTER!!!! I love myself the way I am...and if you don't love me like this...bye-bye...
But, a couple of years ago I had to start taking high blood pressure medicine, cholesterol medicine, still on a small dose of hormones, and also medicine for acid reflux... So...in January of 2010, I decided to make a HUGE change in my life...
I went to see a doctor's seminar about Gastric Bypass... I feel in love with the doctors because they were SO truthful...and caring...and straight up in your face about it! I started going to see Dr. Robert Davis of The Davis Clinic in Memorial City, Houston, Texas and I can honestly tell you...that he has changed my life for the better!!
I, of course, had to do the whole insurance requirement thing...and I got APPROVED... I went to a nutritionist for 3 months so I could learn what I needed to prepare myself for after surgery... On July 7th (Karson's 10th bday), I got a call from Alma at the Clinic and she said that they got the final approval for surgery...and that I had a surgery date...of August 24th, 2010...
I was so excited...but then I was like "CRAP"...I can't take off work that week...it's the first week of school...and they will fall apart if I'm not there...but then I was like...no, they will be okay...I'll give them PLENTY of notice that I will be out for a week or so... So, I talked to my boss and told him what I had going on and that I know we aren't supposed to take off during August/September...but I had to do this...I couldn't put it off any longer... So...he agreed that since it was a medicial issue and not vacation, that I could have the week off...
On August 10th, 2010, I started my two weeks of liquids only prior to surgery... The first few days were tough...but...my friends and famly supported me so much (THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! I LOVE EACH OF YOU DEARLY!!!!)... I will say that I did cheat some during those two weeks...I just HAD to have something to freaking chew and swallow!!! LOL...
Anyway, surgery day got here...and we (me, Mom, MeeMaw and Aunt Judy) went to the hospital and sat around forever until it was my turn... I was so nervous!!! I had only been in the hospital 2 times before that...1 to have Karson and 2 to have the tumor removed... I was so scared... I took Karson to school that morning and told her I loved her and gave her a HUGE hug and kiss and told her (and PRAYED REALLY HARD) that I would see her in a couple of days... Karson is the whole reason I was doing this... I wanted to be here for her...and see my daughter graduate HS, College, get married, and be with her when she gives us grandchildren (when I'm 50ish...I didn't have her until I was 25...)... She is the reason I am here today...she keeps me going...and I wanted to be around in order for her to keep me going!!!
I was in the hospital for a few days (Tuesday-Wednesday-Thursday)...and I was doing great while there... I came home Friday and was okay...then by Saturday I thought that I had made the BIGGEST mistake of my life!!! I was SO SICK... ANYTHING I put in my mouth made me nauseous...and I threw up... I couldn't drink water or anything!! The doctor wanted to put me back in the hospital, but I said no... we finally realized that I'm allergic to liquid coedine...I will NEVER take that stuff again!!! Once that got out of my system, I could drink water and broth without hurling...
I'm doing GREAT now!!! I have lost a total of 48 pounds in a month!!! I can't eat a lot at one time...but that's fine... My stomach is about the size of a golf ball...so it only holds about 1/4 to 1/2 cup at a time... I have to eat 4 or 5 times a day...and it has to be hig protein foods...because I can't drink the protein shakes anymore...they make me hurl... They are SO SWEET!!! And I wasn't a sweet eater before surgery...and I'm definitely NOT one now...LOL...
I have to read all the nutrition facts on all food now... I can only have so much sugar per meal... And it's hard to eat things that are canned/pre-packaged because of the sugar count... But...so far so good... I feel a lot better...and can do more by jsut losing the 48 pounds...just think when I lose all that I want to how good I will feel...
Thank you so much for listening to me... I will keep everyone updated on my progress as time goes on...
Thank you again...and I love each and every one of you...
PS - I would post a before and now picture, but for some reason, blogger won't accept my pics...whatever...LOL...
Have a great day!!!
Well...it's been a LONG time since I posted anything...I know...but...I felt I needed a little break... PLUS...I had surgery and it put me out of commission for a couple of weeks...
More on my surgery you say... Okay...here goes...
Most of you who read my blog have known me all of my life or, at least, most of it... This is something that I have never been able to talk about...with anyone... As you know, I've ALWAYS been overweight...and five years ago after having that tumor removed, the hormones from trying to get pregnant again and all the other stuff that was going on in our lives...I gained more weight...
I used to be REALLY self-conscious about my weight... I didn't do a whole lot because I was too embarrassed by my weight...and I love(d) my (ex-)husband to death, but it was partially his fault... As you notice, I don't blame him completely...I'm at fault too... BUT...I had a wake up call when we got divorced 3 years ago...i have a whole new meaning in life about me...(please excuse the French)...IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME THE WAY I AM, FUCK YOU, I DON'T NEED YOU IN MY LIFE!!!... So, I started dressing differently...not covering up as much and not wearing clothes that were actually too big for me and made me look bigger... My whole outlook on myself changed...FOR THE BETTER!!!! I love myself the way I am...and if you don't love me like this...bye-bye...
But, a couple of years ago I had to start taking high blood pressure medicine, cholesterol medicine, still on a small dose of hormones, and also medicine for acid reflux... So...in January of 2010, I decided to make a HUGE change in my life...
I went to see a doctor's seminar about Gastric Bypass... I feel in love with the doctors because they were SO truthful...and caring...and straight up in your face about it! I started going to see Dr. Robert Davis of The Davis Clinic in Memorial City, Houston, Texas and I can honestly tell you...that he has changed my life for the better!!
I, of course, had to do the whole insurance requirement thing...and I got APPROVED... I went to a nutritionist for 3 months so I could learn what I needed to prepare myself for after surgery... On July 7th (Karson's 10th bday), I got a call from Alma at the Clinic and she said that they got the final approval for surgery...and that I had a surgery date...of August 24th, 2010...
I was so excited...but then I was like "CRAP"...I can't take off work that week...it's the first week of school...and they will fall apart if I'm not there...but then I was like...no, they will be okay...I'll give them PLENTY of notice that I will be out for a week or so... So, I talked to my boss and told him what I had going on and that I know we aren't supposed to take off during August/September...but I had to do this...I couldn't put it off any longer... So...he agreed that since it was a medicial issue and not vacation, that I could have the week off...
On August 10th, 2010, I started my two weeks of liquids only prior to surgery... The first few days were tough...but...my friends and famly supported me so much (THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! I LOVE EACH OF YOU DEARLY!!!!)... I will say that I did cheat some during those two weeks...I just HAD to have something to freaking chew and swallow!!! LOL...
Anyway, surgery day got here...and we (me, Mom, MeeMaw and Aunt Judy) went to the hospital and sat around forever until it was my turn... I was so nervous!!! I had only been in the hospital 2 times before that...1 to have Karson and 2 to have the tumor removed... I was so scared... I took Karson to school that morning and told her I loved her and gave her a HUGE hug and kiss and told her (and PRAYED REALLY HARD) that I would see her in a couple of days... Karson is the whole reason I was doing this... I wanted to be here for her...and see my daughter graduate HS, College, get married, and be with her when she gives us grandchildren (when I'm 50ish...I didn't have her until I was 25...)... She is the reason I am here today...she keeps me going...and I wanted to be around in order for her to keep me going!!!
I was in the hospital for a few days (Tuesday-Wednesday-Thursday)...and I was doing great while there... I came home Friday and was okay...then by Saturday I thought that I had made the BIGGEST mistake of my life!!! I was SO SICK... ANYTHING I put in my mouth made me nauseous...and I threw up... I couldn't drink water or anything!! The doctor wanted to put me back in the hospital, but I said no... we finally realized that I'm allergic to liquid coedine...I will NEVER take that stuff again!!! Once that got out of my system, I could drink water and broth without hurling...
I'm doing GREAT now!!! I have lost a total of 48 pounds in a month!!! I can't eat a lot at one time...but that's fine... My stomach is about the size of a golf ball...so it only holds about 1/4 to 1/2 cup at a time... I have to eat 4 or 5 times a day...and it has to be hig protein foods...because I can't drink the protein shakes anymore...they make me hurl... They are SO SWEET!!! And I wasn't a sweet eater before surgery...and I'm definitely NOT one now...LOL...
I have to read all the nutrition facts on all food now... I can only have so much sugar per meal... And it's hard to eat things that are canned/pre-packaged because of the sugar count... But...so far so good... I feel a lot better...and can do more by jsut losing the 48 pounds...just think when I lose all that I want to how good I will feel...
Thank you so much for listening to me... I will keep everyone updated on my progress as time goes on...
Thank you again...and I love each and every one of you...
PS - I would post a before and now picture, but for some reason, blogger won't accept my pics...whatever...LOL...
Have a great day!!!
Monday, August 23, 2010
1st Day of School
WOW...
School starts again today for just about EVERY School District in Texas...all of them in the Houston area start today...
AND I OFFICIALLY HAVE A 5TH GRADER.......AND A NIECE IN HS.......
And yes, I did shed a few tears... I can't believe my girls are growing up so fast!! I don't have a first day of school picture to share...because mom leaves for work at 6:15 a.m. and she was not all smiles when I woke her up to tell her to have a good day...LOL...
I did gt to talk to her though...because the Nanny had to call me and tell me to have a talk with her...she DID NOT want to move this morning...plus she had a wardrobe malfunction...and for girls her age...wardrobe malfunctions are the worst thing that can happen...especially on the first day of school...so pray my girls day turns out better than it has started...
So, her day didn't start off too good...I sure hope it gets better tomorrow morning...but...I won't see her then either...or for the next few days actually... Her dad is coming to get her this evening and she is spending the next two nights with him while I'm in the hospital...and I'm SO going to miss her... She's my girl...and we take care of each other... So...the Nanny will be taking care of me for the next few days instead of the kiddo...LOL...
Have a great day everyone...
School starts again today for just about EVERY School District in Texas...all of them in the Houston area start today...
AND I OFFICIALLY HAVE A 5TH GRADER.......AND A NIECE IN HS.......
And yes, I did shed a few tears... I can't believe my girls are growing up so fast!! I don't have a first day of school picture to share...because mom leaves for work at 6:15 a.m. and she was not all smiles when I woke her up to tell her to have a good day...LOL...
I did gt to talk to her though...because the Nanny had to call me and tell me to have a talk with her...she DID NOT want to move this morning...plus she had a wardrobe malfunction...and for girls her age...wardrobe malfunctions are the worst thing that can happen...especially on the first day of school...so pray my girls day turns out better than it has started...
So, her day didn't start off too good...I sure hope it gets better tomorrow morning...but...I won't see her then either...or for the next few days actually... Her dad is coming to get her this evening and she is spending the next two nights with him while I'm in the hospital...and I'm SO going to miss her... She's my girl...and we take care of each other... So...the Nanny will be taking care of me for the next few days instead of the kiddo...LOL...
Have a great day everyone...
Friday, August 6, 2010
Thought for today...
True Love is when you can sit in a room together and say nothing, and it feels like you've said a thousand words!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
...COFFEE AND FRUIT AND CHEESE...
Okay...I know it's been a while since I blogged...and you were probably wondering where on earth I've been...but...I've been right here...sorry to spoil your fun...no adventures for me...BUT...I do have one coming up...August 24th...more about that another day...
I've been doing really great with coffee in the mornings... I don't make it at home because I get up so early and the Nanny doesn't get up until much later... So, like any good person would do...I just wait and get coffee when I get to work so the Nanny doesn't drink stale coffee...because that's just the way I am...I think of others before I think of myself... Well...this morning I needed it...so...I stopped at Starbucks... And Starbucks is somewhere that I've been staying away from... Anyway, so I stop and get coffee and they have a fruit, nut and cheese tray now, so I got that too... It was just what I needed...and the Brie that is in the little tray...is AWESOME!!! I've had some GREAT Brie...but this just melted in my mouth (like most Brie's do)...but it was really good! Brie is not normally something that i want at 6 a.m., but I'm glad I stopped at Starbucks this morning...because it was really good...
Have a great day everyone!!!
I've been doing really great with coffee in the mornings... I don't make it at home because I get up so early and the Nanny doesn't get up until much later... So, like any good person would do...I just wait and get coffee when I get to work so the Nanny doesn't drink stale coffee...because that's just the way I am...I think of others before I think of myself... Well...this morning I needed it...so...I stopped at Starbucks... And Starbucks is somewhere that I've been staying away from... Anyway, so I stop and get coffee and they have a fruit, nut and cheese tray now, so I got that too... It was just what I needed...and the Brie that is in the little tray...is AWESOME!!! I've had some GREAT Brie...but this just melted in my mouth (like most Brie's do)...but it was really good! Brie is not normally something that i want at 6 a.m., but I'm glad I stopped at Starbucks this morning...because it was really good...
Have a great day everyone!!!
Monday, July 12, 2010
My STAYcation...
I was off last week and we went absolutly NO WHERE!!! We hung out at the house every day and just enjoyed our mom and daughter time!!
My sweet daughter turned 10 years old on July 7th...and I let her have her first slumber party... I had five 10 year old girls and one 14 1/2 year old (my loving niece) at my house for 24 hours...plus the family that night for cake and ice cream... I can't believe my baby girl has hit the double digits in age!!
We went Saturday night to the Sam Houston Racetrack to watch the horses race...and then see Sunny Sweeny and Kevin Fowler in concert! Karson got to meet him and have her picture made and his autograph... She was on cloud nine for hours after we left... Then we did nothing at all yesterday but stay in our jammies... I don't think she came down from the clouds until about 2 a.m. or so... I have pictures from the other night...but for some reason, I can't upload any to here... (that's why I haven't had any pictures posted in a LONG time) The fight between my blog and me has resulted in my blog winning...
Well...I hope that everyone had a safe and happy 4th of July... Karson was at her dads that weekend and when he brought her home, they stayed for fireworks...and Ryan only got scared a couple of times... I love seeing things from the eyes of a 2 1/2 year old! He's so sweet and I tell his dad that he looks just like him...because there is no mistaking that Jeff is Ryans dad just like there is no mistaking that Karson is mine...\
Have a great day!
My sweet daughter turned 10 years old on July 7th...and I let her have her first slumber party... I had five 10 year old girls and one 14 1/2 year old (my loving niece) at my house for 24 hours...plus the family that night for cake and ice cream... I can't believe my baby girl has hit the double digits in age!!
We went Saturday night to the Sam Houston Racetrack to watch the horses race...and then see Sunny Sweeny and Kevin Fowler in concert! Karson got to meet him and have her picture made and his autograph... She was on cloud nine for hours after we left... Then we did nothing at all yesterday but stay in our jammies... I don't think she came down from the clouds until about 2 a.m. or so... I have pictures from the other night...but for some reason, I can't upload any to here... (that's why I haven't had any pictures posted in a LONG time) The fight between my blog and me has resulted in my blog winning...
Well...I hope that everyone had a safe and happy 4th of July... Karson was at her dads that weekend and when he brought her home, they stayed for fireworks...and Ryan only got scared a couple of times... I love seeing things from the eyes of a 2 1/2 year old! He's so sweet and I tell his dad that he looks just like him...because there is no mistaking that Jeff is Ryans dad just like there is no mistaking that Karson is mine...\
Have a great day!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Father's Day...
I know it's a little late...
But I couldn't do it Sunday...
I just couldn't...
My dad...
I was a typical "Daddy's Girl"...
I always got my way with him...
No matter WHAT I asked for...
He was my protector until the day I got married...
And then he continued to do it even though his job was over...
When Jeff and I got divorced, he knew the real reason why...
And hated Jeff for it...
It's no secret that I was pregnant when Jeff and I got married...
We had been together for 5 years when I found out we were going to have a baby...
And we had been engaged for 2 1/2 of those 5 years and had lived with each other for the 1 1/2 years...
When you 'play' you 'pay'...and for someone who was told I would never be able to have a baby...I didn't care that we weren't married yet...I had a miracle growing inside of me!!
My dad was the first one I went to with everything...good news or bad...it didn't matter...
When I found out I was pregnant, I didn't go to him first...I told Jeff...and he didn't speak to me for a couple of days...like I was the ONLY one responsible for it!
After I told him, I called my best friend for life...Kristie...my cousin...
We cried together...and then I told Kristie's mom, my Aunt Vickie...
Aunt Vickie went to the doctor with me two days later to confirm that I was pregnant (even though all 5 test were positive, Jeff still wanted the doctor to confirm it)...
Me, Aunt Vickie, Kristie and my mom had lunch together that day...
I wanted to break the news to her in a public place...so she wouldn't kill me...LOL...
I couldn't do it...
She had to get back to work...so we all got in my rental car and as I was pulling out on 2100, I told her...and we all started crying...but it was happy tears...she was going to be a Nanna again...
I told her that when she got home from work, that I would meet her there and we would tell my dad together...
I got there and we were all just talking away about any and everything...
Then...I said "Daddy, I have to tell you something and you are probably going to be either mad or disappointed in me."
The look on his face went blank...and he said "Okay Peanut, what is it?"
And I just blurted out "I'm pregnant..."
He said "What?"
I said "I'm pregnant..."
The look on his face went from nothing to sheer excitement!!!
He jumpped up from his chair and did a happy dance...
And then grabbed me and started hugging me...
I was so scared that he would be more disappointed in me than my mom was...
But he wasn't...
He told me that he was "always on my side for any and every thing I did...no matter what!"
Right before my dad walked me down the isle to marry Jeff, he said "Peanut, you don't have to do this...you can do this on your own and I'll help you with everything you need... You don't have to get married just because you are pregnant...you can do anything you want on your own!!"
Of course, I told him no...
That I wanted to marry Jeff and spend our lives together and raise our child together...
He used to tease me after we got divorced that I should have taken him up on his offer the day I got married...LMAO...
My dad was something else!!
I miss him SO MUCH!!!
I still find myself picking up the phone during the day to call him and check on him...
I hate not being able to do that!!
We've know since his first stroke (when Karson was 11 months old) that he was a walking timebomb waiting to go off...
We never thought in a million years that cancer would be what took him from us...
When you have a brainstem that's blocked 100%...cancer isn't your biggest worry at the time...
Cancer became our biggest worry on June 13, 2007...
He went in for a biopsy on "something" on his throat...
Dr. Denis Hoasjoe took my dad back there and when he came out, he changed our lives forever!
He said that the spot was cancerous, but it was Stage 1 and could be cured...
When we got down to MD Anderson three weeks later, we found out differently...
Dad's cancer was alreay at Stage 4 and was very aggressive!
They started him on chemo and radiation the next week...
Massive doses of it...
There was a chance that due to his other medical problems, that it could hurt him...
Well, it turned out that he couldn't take the chemo...
It did more harm that good...
He got put into CCICU at MD Anderson the first time with double pneumonia...
He was on a ventilator and everything for weeks...
We didn't think that he would make it...
He stayed in CCICU for three weeks and then a regular room for a week more...
The doctors said that due to not being able to go to treatments for three weeks, that it could mess up his prognosis...
In November 2007, the day we buried one of his sisters who died of cancer, my dad got a clean bill of health...
Or so the doctors thought!
He was fine for a few months...
And then he told us that he knew the doctors were wrong about the clean bill of health...
He knew the day they told us...but he wanted us to enjoy it for a little while...and he wanted to enjoy us before he told us the truth...
He went back to the doctor for his 3 month check up and it confirmed what he knew from November...
The cancer was still there...and it was speading FAST!!
We got to go on one last family trip (minus my brother Bryan - BK) to Savannah, GA...
The girls LOVE Paula Deen...so we drove all the way to Savannah to go eat at her restaurant...
And it was worth it...
That was really the last time my dad could actually eat something...
They put a feeding tube in him in August 2008...
He still "ate" his shakes...but mostly he was fed through the feeding tube...
He put off getting it as long as he could...
He didn't want to get it because of the girls...
He loved his girls SO MUCH!!!
And they love their PawPaw with all their hearts!!!
On December 21, 2008, my dad went into the hospital for the last time...
He started hemorrhaging from the mouth.
I wasn't home and got a frantic call from my mom telling me to meet them at MD Anderson...
I was with Julie and MiMi at Wal-Mart...
We had a basket of stuff that we just left in the aisle and ran...
We made it to the hospital before they did...
Julie and MiMi went with me...well...Julie drove...there was no way they were letting me do it...
The doctor didn't think that he would make it through the night...but he did...
They got the hemorrhaging stopped and moved him into a room...
We called the entire family in...
We just knew...
The next day they moved him into a hospice care hospital in The Heights...
Everyone came to see him the 22nd and 23rd and then on the 24th he wanted to have Christmas with his girls...
So, Angie went to the house and got all the presents for them from Mom and Dad...
By the time she got there, he started hemorrhaging again...
Doyle took the girls and they went to look at Christmas lights and then took them back to their house...
My dad drew his last breath at 6:19 p.m. December 24, 2008...
Mom, Bryan, Angie, me, MeeMaw, Keith, Aunt Judy,and Uncle Ronnie were all there with him when he went...
He had such a peaceful look on his face when he finally went...
And my mom felt a weight lifted off her shoulders because he knew he was no longer suffering...
He suffered SO MUCH the last few months he was alive...
Daddy,
I love you and I miss you...
I know that you are so much better now...
But is still hurts...
You would be so proud of your girls...
They are growing into fine young ladies...
Megan is now 14...
Karson is almost 10...
Thank you for being YOU!!!
Love,
Peanut
But I couldn't do it Sunday...
I just couldn't...
My dad...
I was a typical "Daddy's Girl"...
I always got my way with him...
No matter WHAT I asked for...
He was my protector until the day I got married...
And then he continued to do it even though his job was over...
When Jeff and I got divorced, he knew the real reason why...
And hated Jeff for it...
It's no secret that I was pregnant when Jeff and I got married...
We had been together for 5 years when I found out we were going to have a baby...
And we had been engaged for 2 1/2 of those 5 years and had lived with each other for the 1 1/2 years...
When you 'play' you 'pay'...and for someone who was told I would never be able to have a baby...I didn't care that we weren't married yet...I had a miracle growing inside of me!!
My dad was the first one I went to with everything...good news or bad...it didn't matter...
When I found out I was pregnant, I didn't go to him first...I told Jeff...and he didn't speak to me for a couple of days...like I was the ONLY one responsible for it!
After I told him, I called my best friend for life...Kristie...my cousin...
We cried together...and then I told Kristie's mom, my Aunt Vickie...
Aunt Vickie went to the doctor with me two days later to confirm that I was pregnant (even though all 5 test were positive, Jeff still wanted the doctor to confirm it)...
Me, Aunt Vickie, Kristie and my mom had lunch together that day...
I wanted to break the news to her in a public place...so she wouldn't kill me...LOL...
I couldn't do it...
She had to get back to work...so we all got in my rental car and as I was pulling out on 2100, I told her...and we all started crying...but it was happy tears...she was going to be a Nanna again...
I told her that when she got home from work, that I would meet her there and we would tell my dad together...
I got there and we were all just talking away about any and everything...
Then...I said "Daddy, I have to tell you something and you are probably going to be either mad or disappointed in me."
The look on his face went blank...and he said "Okay Peanut, what is it?"
And I just blurted out "I'm pregnant..."
He said "What?"
I said "I'm pregnant..."
The look on his face went from nothing to sheer excitement!!!
He jumpped up from his chair and did a happy dance...
And then grabbed me and started hugging me...
I was so scared that he would be more disappointed in me than my mom was...
But he wasn't...
He told me that he was "always on my side for any and every thing I did...no matter what!"
Right before my dad walked me down the isle to marry Jeff, he said "Peanut, you don't have to do this...you can do this on your own and I'll help you with everything you need... You don't have to get married just because you are pregnant...you can do anything you want on your own!!"
Of course, I told him no...
That I wanted to marry Jeff and spend our lives together and raise our child together...
He used to tease me after we got divorced that I should have taken him up on his offer the day I got married...LMAO...
My dad was something else!!
I miss him SO MUCH!!!
I still find myself picking up the phone during the day to call him and check on him...
I hate not being able to do that!!
We've know since his first stroke (when Karson was 11 months old) that he was a walking timebomb waiting to go off...
We never thought in a million years that cancer would be what took him from us...
When you have a brainstem that's blocked 100%...cancer isn't your biggest worry at the time...
Cancer became our biggest worry on June 13, 2007...
He went in for a biopsy on "something" on his throat...
Dr. Denis Hoasjoe took my dad back there and when he came out, he changed our lives forever!
He said that the spot was cancerous, but it was Stage 1 and could be cured...
When we got down to MD Anderson three weeks later, we found out differently...
Dad's cancer was alreay at Stage 4 and was very aggressive!
They started him on chemo and radiation the next week...
Massive doses of it...
There was a chance that due to his other medical problems, that it could hurt him...
Well, it turned out that he couldn't take the chemo...
It did more harm that good...
He got put into CCICU at MD Anderson the first time with double pneumonia...
He was on a ventilator and everything for weeks...
We didn't think that he would make it...
He stayed in CCICU for three weeks and then a regular room for a week more...
The doctors said that due to not being able to go to treatments for three weeks, that it could mess up his prognosis...
In November 2007, the day we buried one of his sisters who died of cancer, my dad got a clean bill of health...
Or so the doctors thought!
He was fine for a few months...
And then he told us that he knew the doctors were wrong about the clean bill of health...
He knew the day they told us...but he wanted us to enjoy it for a little while...and he wanted to enjoy us before he told us the truth...
He went back to the doctor for his 3 month check up and it confirmed what he knew from November...
The cancer was still there...and it was speading FAST!!
We got to go on one last family trip (minus my brother Bryan - BK) to Savannah, GA...
The girls LOVE Paula Deen...so we drove all the way to Savannah to go eat at her restaurant...
And it was worth it...
That was really the last time my dad could actually eat something...
They put a feeding tube in him in August 2008...
He still "ate" his shakes...but mostly he was fed through the feeding tube...
He put off getting it as long as he could...
He didn't want to get it because of the girls...
He loved his girls SO MUCH!!!
And they love their PawPaw with all their hearts!!!
On December 21, 2008, my dad went into the hospital for the last time...
He started hemorrhaging from the mouth.
I wasn't home and got a frantic call from my mom telling me to meet them at MD Anderson...
I was with Julie and MiMi at Wal-Mart...
We had a basket of stuff that we just left in the aisle and ran...
We made it to the hospital before they did...
Julie and MiMi went with me...well...Julie drove...there was no way they were letting me do it...
The doctor didn't think that he would make it through the night...but he did...
They got the hemorrhaging stopped and moved him into a room...
We called the entire family in...
We just knew...
The next day they moved him into a hospice care hospital in The Heights...
Everyone came to see him the 22nd and 23rd and then on the 24th he wanted to have Christmas with his girls...
So, Angie went to the house and got all the presents for them from Mom and Dad...
By the time she got there, he started hemorrhaging again...
Doyle took the girls and they went to look at Christmas lights and then took them back to their house...
My dad drew his last breath at 6:19 p.m. December 24, 2008...
Mom, Bryan, Angie, me, MeeMaw, Keith, Aunt Judy,and Uncle Ronnie were all there with him when he went...
He had such a peaceful look on his face when he finally went...
And my mom felt a weight lifted off her shoulders because he knew he was no longer suffering...
He suffered SO MUCH the last few months he was alive...
Daddy,
I love you and I miss you...
I know that you are so much better now...
But is still hurts...
You would be so proud of your girls...
They are growing into fine young ladies...
Megan is now 14...
Karson is almost 10...
Thank you for being YOU!!!
Love,
Peanut
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
HOT...HUMID...SOUTHEAST TEXAS...
Today is Tuesday, June 8, 2010...and it's already been SO HOT outside!!! I think that this summer is going to be a HOT one again!! And the humidity...man...it's like a sauna out there most days!! Last year it was this hot as well...and we had a VERY COLD winter!! Snowing two and three times in one winter in Crosby, Texas is a record...and we LOVED every second of it!!!
Now it's summer time and the pool is finally swimable...so we will more than likely spend every afternoon in the pool!!
Stay cool...don't get over heated this summer...
Now it's summer time and the pool is finally swimable...so we will more than likely spend every afternoon in the pool!!
Stay cool...don't get over heated this summer...
Friday, May 21, 2010
Cool Website...
I was on PW's site looking at her Homeschooling page and she has a site listed called www.FreeRice.com and if you go there and take the vocabulary quiz...for every right answer...they will donate 10 grains of rice to the United Nations World Food Program (www.wfp.org). I took one and got all of them correct...so by the time I had to stop...I had donated 680 grains of rice to WFP...
I just thought that this was way cool!!
Go check it out!!!
I just thought that this was way cool!!
Go check it out!!!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
It Takes...
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone...
It takes an hour to like someone...
It takes a day to love someone...
But it takes a lifetime to forget someone...
This hits home to me for several different reasons...two of them are...
One, missing my dad a lot here lately... He's been dead for 17 months now, and at times, I find myself picking the phone up to call him during the day to check on him... Then I realize that when I call the house, the machine will pick up...not him... He was such a strong man... Always busy out in his workshop building something for one of the girls or just tinkering with his tools until he couldn't stand it any longer and have to go inside because he hurt so bad. Damn cancer!
Second, a sweet little angel is in the hospital as I type this fighting for her life. Madi has made such an impact on EVERYONE she comes in contact with! She was diagnosed with leukemia when she was 4 years old. Two years later, her old brother Austin was her bone marrow donor. The transfusion took, but she now suffers from Graft Verses Host Disease. Madi has one of the worse cases of GVHD. She has not been able to attend school for more than 5 years now...and she is only 11 years old! Her mom is a teacher, so she homeschool Madi. Summer of 2009, Madi was hospitalized for 77 consecutive days! She continues to have problems daily with not being able to swallow, hurting when she moves and so many more things.
GVHD is a common complication of allogeneic bone marrow transplantation in which functional immune cells in the transplanted marrow recognize the recipient as "foreign" and mount an immunologic attack. There are two types of GVHD. The acute or fulminant form of the disease (aGVHD) is normally observed within the first 100 days post-transplant, and is a major challenge to transplants owing to associated morbidity and mortality. The chronic form of the disease (cGVHD) normally occurs after 100 days. The appearance of moderate to severe cases of cGVHD adversely influences long-term survival.
Please take time to pray for this family as they surround her with all the love they can at this time. Please pray that the doctors can get her oxygen levels stabilized and her carbon monoxide levels to where they should be and not "taking over" her body...
It takes an hour to like someone...
It takes a day to love someone...
But it takes a lifetime to forget someone...
This hits home to me for several different reasons...two of them are...
One, missing my dad a lot here lately... He's been dead for 17 months now, and at times, I find myself picking the phone up to call him during the day to check on him... Then I realize that when I call the house, the machine will pick up...not him... He was such a strong man... Always busy out in his workshop building something for one of the girls or just tinkering with his tools until he couldn't stand it any longer and have to go inside because he hurt so bad. Damn cancer!
Second, a sweet little angel is in the hospital as I type this fighting for her life. Madi has made such an impact on EVERYONE she comes in contact with! She was diagnosed with leukemia when she was 4 years old. Two years later, her old brother Austin was her bone marrow donor. The transfusion took, but she now suffers from Graft Verses Host Disease. Madi has one of the worse cases of GVHD. She has not been able to attend school for more than 5 years now...and she is only 11 years old! Her mom is a teacher, so she homeschool Madi. Summer of 2009, Madi was hospitalized for 77 consecutive days! She continues to have problems daily with not being able to swallow, hurting when she moves and so many more things.
GVHD is a common complication of allogeneic bone marrow transplantation in which functional immune cells in the transplanted marrow recognize the recipient as "foreign" and mount an immunologic attack. There are two types of GVHD. The acute or fulminant form of the disease (aGVHD) is normally observed within the first 100 days post-transplant, and is a major challenge to transplants owing to associated morbidity and mortality. The chronic form of the disease (cGVHD) normally occurs after 100 days. The appearance of moderate to severe cases of cGVHD adversely influences long-term survival.
Please take time to pray for this family as they surround her with all the love they can at this time. Please pray that the doctors can get her oxygen levels stabilized and her carbon monoxide levels to where they should be and not "taking over" her body...
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Karson...
Last night I was on my way to take Behr (Karson's dog) out before bed and I noticed a piece of paper on the bar with Karson's stuff that was fold and worn... I opened it thinking that it was going to be some homework that she's been carrying around in her clipboard (yes, she has a neon lime green clipboard - to keep her organized...LOL), anyway...I opened it and it was a letter to my dad.
As most of you know, my dad passed away on December 24, 2008 at 6:19 p.m. Me, Mom, Bryan (brother), Angie (sister), Aunt Judy, MeeMaw, Keith, and Uncle Ronnie were all there with him when he drew his last breath... That is something that I will never forget as long as I live...
I read the letter that was written to him and it brought tears to my eyes...just as it is now... It said how much she missed him. And that we were going to the gravesite to "see" him in the next few days to take him something...we had new flowers to put on it... It talked about how she wished he could have seen her open her gifts Christmas morning... She told him that she got a couple of Webkinz, some Wii games, a new purse with $100 bill in it, some clothes, etc. She told him all she got for Christmas the Christmas he passed away... I have the sweetest daughter anyone could ask for! And she's just as sweet as the day we brought her home from the hospital...
I haven't had a cry in a LONG time...and I think that today is going to be that day... I love and miss you dearly Dad... I will always be your Peanut and a Daddy's Girl...
As most of you know, my dad passed away on December 24, 2008 at 6:19 p.m. Me, Mom, Bryan (brother), Angie (sister), Aunt Judy, MeeMaw, Keith, and Uncle Ronnie were all there with him when he drew his last breath... That is something that I will never forget as long as I live...
I read the letter that was written to him and it brought tears to my eyes...just as it is now... It said how much she missed him. And that we were going to the gravesite to "see" him in the next few days to take him something...we had new flowers to put on it... It talked about how she wished he could have seen her open her gifts Christmas morning... She told him that she got a couple of Webkinz, some Wii games, a new purse with $100 bill in it, some clothes, etc. She told him all she got for Christmas the Christmas he passed away... I have the sweetest daughter anyone could ask for! And she's just as sweet as the day we brought her home from the hospital...
I haven't had a cry in a LONG time...and I think that today is going to be that day... I love and miss you dearly Dad... I will always be your Peanut and a Daddy's Girl...
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
...ME...
Well...
I have a birthday coming up...and it's a pretty big one...I'll be......drumroll please......
35!!!!
And I am so ready for it!! Karson told me last summer after she had her 9th birthday this:
"Mom, did you realize that next summer when I turn 10...you will be 35!!!"
She laughed...I turned pale as if I had just seen a ghost...LOL... Then...it hit me like a ton of bricks...BRING IT ON!!!
So...in 11 days from today...I will be 35...and I can't wait... I'm planning a HUGE 40th party...so everyone who knows and loves me will be there!! I think that for this year (if Jeff doesn't have Karson), that we will just go out to eat...and if he does have Karson...I'm sure I'll hang out at the house and then we will go out to eat after she gets home Sunday...
Ta ta for now...
I have a birthday coming up...and it's a pretty big one...I'll be......drumroll please......
35!!!!
And I am so ready for it!! Karson told me last summer after she had her 9th birthday this:
"Mom, did you realize that next summer when I turn 10...you will be 35!!!"
She laughed...I turned pale as if I had just seen a ghost...LOL... Then...it hit me like a ton of bricks...BRING IT ON!!!
So...in 11 days from today...I will be 35...and I can't wait... I'm planning a HUGE 40th party...so everyone who knows and loves me will be there!! I think that for this year (if Jeff doesn't have Karson), that we will just go out to eat...and if he does have Karson...I'm sure I'll hang out at the house and then we will go out to eat after she gets home Sunday...
Ta ta for now...
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
ABC's of me...
ABC's of Me
A - Age: 34 – for 18 more days!
B - Baked good: Cookies
C - Chore you hate: Dusting
D - Dog's name: Behr
E - Essential start your day item: COFFEE!
F - Favorite color: Hooker Red!
G - Gold or Silver or Platinum: ALL!!!
H - Height: 5'10"
I - Instruments you play: Flute
J - Job title: Purchasing Agent
K - Kid(s): One – Karson Syndee Kominek
L - Longest flight: California/Florida/Cancun
M - Mom's name: Sandra
N - Newest article of clothing: SHOES!!!
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Karson being born and tumor removal
P - Pet Peeve: Liars and Cheaters!
Q - Quote from a movie: From Steel Magnolias
“Hit her… Hit her MaLynn… Wack Weezer…it’ll make ya’ feel betta’!”
R - Right handed or left handed: Right.
S - Siblings: One older brother!
T - Time you wake up: 5:00 a.m.
U- Underwear: Any and all…
V - Vegetable you dislike: I love all veggies…
W - Way you run late: TRAFFIC!!!
X - X-rays you've had: Too many…
Y - Yummy food you make: Taco Soup, Italian Cream Cheese Cake, Cheese Soup, and many other things…
Z - Zoo favorite: Giraffes, zebras, monkeys…
A - Age: 34 – for 18 more days!
B - Baked good: Cookies
C - Chore you hate: Dusting
D - Dog's name: Behr
E - Essential start your day item: COFFEE!
F - Favorite color: Hooker Red!
G - Gold or Silver or Platinum: ALL!!!
H - Height: 5'10"
I - Instruments you play: Flute
J - Job title: Purchasing Agent
K - Kid(s): One – Karson Syndee Kominek
L - Longest flight: California/Florida/Cancun
M - Mom's name: Sandra
N - Newest article of clothing: SHOES!!!
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Karson being born and tumor removal
P - Pet Peeve: Liars and Cheaters!
Q - Quote from a movie: From Steel Magnolias
“Hit her… Hit her MaLynn… Wack Weezer…it’ll make ya’ feel betta’!”
R - Right handed or left handed: Right.
S - Siblings: One older brother!
T - Time you wake up: 5:00 a.m.
U- Underwear: Any and all…
V - Vegetable you dislike: I love all veggies…
W - Way you run late: TRAFFIC!!!
X - X-rays you've had: Too many…
Y - Yummy food you make: Taco Soup, Italian Cream Cheese Cake, Cheese Soup, and many other things…
Z - Zoo favorite: Giraffes, zebras, monkeys…
Thursday, March 11, 2010
...ECLIPSE...
Okay...so I just watched the Eclipse trailer...and I can not wait to see it!! Yes...I am a 35 year old (well...in a few more weeks I will be) mom who loves the Twilight series books! And I was one of MANY who saw New Moon at the midnight showing...and yes...I will be one of MANY to see Eclipse that way too!
Monday, March 8, 2010
Manic Monday...
Well...
It's just another manic Monday...
I wish it was Sunday...
'Cause that's my funday...
My I don't have to runday...
It's just another manic Monday...
Love that song and that's the way I feel today!!
I was over at http://laurenfromtexas.com/
and at the end of her post it talks about her and her dad...
And it made me miss my dad SO MUCH!!!
Most of you know that i've always been a
"DADDY'S GIRL" and when he passed away...
and I've said this before...a part of me
died with him on 12/24/08... Lauren's post of her
and her dad on her wedding day made me remember my wedding day
10 years ago...man...if we would've made it, we would've
celebrated our 10 year anniversary this year...WOW...
Anyway...I will NEVER forget what my dad said to me...
We were standing at the back of the church and Angie G.
was about to open the door for us to go in...and he said...
"You know Peanut, you can still back out...you don't have
to do this..." I told him no, that I was sure of it...and he said
"OK, just know that the get-away car is warmed up and waiting
for you!" I laughed and laughed...but he meant it!! He didn't
want me to get married to Jeff...I guess daddy always know what's
best...
Love you Daddy! Miss you so much!!!
It's just another manic Monday...
I wish it was Sunday...
'Cause that's my funday...
My I don't have to runday...
It's just another manic Monday...
Love that song and that's the way I feel today!!
I was over at http://laurenfromtexas.com/
and at the end of her post it talks about her and her dad...
And it made me miss my dad SO MUCH!!!
Most of you know that i've always been a
"DADDY'S GIRL" and when he passed away...
and I've said this before...a part of me
died with him on 12/24/08... Lauren's post of her
and her dad on her wedding day made me remember my wedding day
10 years ago...man...if we would've made it, we would've
celebrated our 10 year anniversary this year...WOW...
Anyway...I will NEVER forget what my dad said to me...
We were standing at the back of the church and Angie G.
was about to open the door for us to go in...and he said...
"You know Peanut, you can still back out...you don't have
to do this..." I told him no, that I was sure of it...and he said
"OK, just know that the get-away car is warmed up and waiting
for you!" I laughed and laughed...but he meant it!! He didn't
want me to get married to Jeff...I guess daddy always know what's
best...
Love you Daddy! Miss you so much!!!
Monday, March 1, 2010
New Orleans
We had a blast! No cheer competition......but Karson, MiMi and I had a BLAST!!! We went on the Steamboat Nachez down the Mississippi River for a two hour tour on Friday afternoon... Then we ordered pizza and hung out in the hotel room...had us a girls night... Until Louisiana SWAT showed up......LOL......they were staying down the hall from us.....yummo!! LOL...... Anyway, Saturday we went back downtown and we walked around the French Quarter and went shopping in the Riverwalk Mall......and I bought this...
LOVE it...it's not big enough for me to carry my camera...but I'll figure something out...you know me...I NEVER go anywhere without my camera!! I might need to take a picture of something going down...LMAO... Karson took her money with her and spent every penny that I let her take...LOL...that girl can go through some money...let me tell you!! If I would have let her take all of her money out of her account...she would have spend every penny of it too!!! She LOVES to shop...but HATES to try on clothes!!! LMAO!!
Anyway...when I get the few pictures I took downloaded...I'll post those too... Until then...I think I will sleep!! I WISH I COULD SLEEP!!! I needed to take today off to recover from all the driving!!! LOL...
LOVE it...it's not big enough for me to carry my camera...but I'll figure something out...you know me...I NEVER go anywhere without my camera!! I might need to take a picture of something going down...LMAO... Karson took her money with her and spent every penny that I let her take...LOL...that girl can go through some money...let me tell you!! If I would have let her take all of her money out of her account...she would have spend every penny of it too!!! She LOVES to shop...but HATES to try on clothes!!! LMAO!!
Anyway...when I get the few pictures I took downloaded...I'll post those too... Until then...I think I will sleep!! I WISH I COULD SLEEP!!! I needed to take today off to recover from all the driving!!! LOL...
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I Love Ya, Tomorrow, You're Only a Day Away.....
Karson and I leave for New Orleans tomorrow...by way of Pineville...stopping to pick up MiMi... We all are so excited! We can hardly wait!!!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Five Rules (Thanks Lori...I stole this from you...LOL)
Five rules for men to follow for a happy life
1. It’s important to have a woman who helps at home, who cooks from time to time, cleans up and has a job.
2. It’s important to have a woman who can make you laugh.
3. It’s important to have a woman who you can trust and who doesn’t lie to you.
4. It’s important to have a woman who is good in bed and who likes to be with you.
5. It’s very, very important that these four women do not know each other.
Signed,
Tiger Woods
1. It’s important to have a woman who helps at home, who cooks from time to time, cleans up and has a job.
2. It’s important to have a woman who can make you laugh.
3. It’s important to have a woman who you can trust and who doesn’t lie to you.
4. It’s important to have a woman who is good in bed and who likes to be with you.
5. It’s very, very important that these four women do not know each other.
Signed,
Tiger Woods
Monday, February 8, 2010
My next tattoo
This is my next tattoo... It's just a rough sketch as Becky called it when she did it for me... But it's perfect and exactly what I want...and that I will get in the next few weeks! It's a memorial to my dad and to honor my MeeMaw... All of you know that dad passed away from thoat cancer on 12/24/08...well...some don't know that MeeMaw has battled breast cancer....TWICE....and won both times!!! First time wasn't so bad...they got all of the lump when they did the biopsy...the second time wasn't so easy... She had to have surgery and then the doctor didn't get all of it...so she had to go through radiation...but...she's a trooper and is now cancer free...AGAIN!!!
Okay......so I have searched and searched for the sketch of the tattoo......and I CAN'T FIND IT!!!!! I sure hope Becky still has it on her computer...once I find it...I'll post it!
Sorry Laura...
Okay......so I have searched and searched for the sketch of the tattoo......and I CAN'T FIND IT!!!!! I sure hope Becky still has it on her computer...once I find it...I'll post it!
Sorry Laura...
WooHoo...it was on my cell phone...it's kind of cut off at the bottom where "Love" will be written...but you get the picture...
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Yummy.....
This is my version of an Italian cream cheese cake...everyone LOVES it when I make it...so feel privilaged that I'm sharing it with you all...
Kari's Italian Cream Cheese Cake
Cake:
1 box of Yellow cake mix - (MUST BE BUTTER RECIPE AND THE ONE THAT HAS PUDDING IN THE MIX)
1/3 stick of butter
3 eggs
1 can 15 1/2 oz. curshed pineapple
Mix butter with mixer to soften; add cake mix, 3 eggs, and ENTIRE can of cushed pineapple (including juice) - DO NOT ADD THE WATER THAT THE MIX SAYS TO ADD - YOU ARE USING THE PINEAPPLE JUICE INSTEAD OF THE WATER. Mix for 2 - 3 minutes until well blended. Bake at 350 degrees for 25 - 35 minutes (depending on your oven…start checking at 25 minutes…)
Icing:
1 stick of butter
1 8 oz. package of cream cheese - I use fat free…shh…don't tell anyone :-)
1 package of powdered sugar - you don't use the whole bag - only about 1/2 to 3/4
1 package of chopped walnuts - optional
Milk - a splash at a time
Mix the butter and cream cheese; add about 1/2 bag of powdered sugar and a splash of milk. Mix well and taste…if it doesn't taste right…add a little more of the powdered sugar…not much though… If you want to add the walnuts, this is the time to add them to incorporate them into the icing....
*******Ice the cake when it's warm....I poke a butter knife in the top of the
cake to make 'breathing holes' for the icing to go down into the cake....
ENJOY!!! Let me know how you like it!!!
Kari's Italian Cream Cheese Cake
Cake:
1 box of Yellow cake mix - (MUST BE BUTTER RECIPE AND THE ONE THAT HAS PUDDING IN THE MIX)
1/3 stick of butter
3 eggs
1 can 15 1/2 oz. curshed pineapple
Mix butter with mixer to soften; add cake mix, 3 eggs, and ENTIRE can of cushed pineapple (including juice) - DO NOT ADD THE WATER THAT THE MIX SAYS TO ADD - YOU ARE USING THE PINEAPPLE JUICE INSTEAD OF THE WATER. Mix for 2 - 3 minutes until well blended. Bake at 350 degrees for 25 - 35 minutes (depending on your oven…start checking at 25 minutes…)
Icing:
1 stick of butter
1 8 oz. package of cream cheese - I use fat free…shh…don't tell anyone :-)
1 package of powdered sugar - you don't use the whole bag - only about 1/2 to 3/4
1 package of chopped walnuts - optional
Milk - a splash at a time
Mix the butter and cream cheese; add about 1/2 bag of powdered sugar and a splash of milk. Mix well and taste…if it doesn't taste right…add a little more of the powdered sugar…not much though… If you want to add the walnuts, this is the time to add them to incorporate them into the icing....
*******Ice the cake when it's warm....I poke a butter knife in the top of the
cake to make 'breathing holes' for the icing to go down into the cake....
ENJOY!!! Let me know how you like it!!!
Monday, February 1, 2010
What is your happiest moment.....
Idea stolen from Lisa at Livin' Louisiana (she's AWESOME!!! www.livinlouisiana.blogspot.com)
When was your happiest moment??
Where were you??
What did you see??
What did you taste??
What did you hear??
What did you feel??
Let me know...I'm nosy that way...LOL...
And Lisa...thank you for the tidbit of information...I am very thankful my doctors and nurses put me on antibotics right away...that must have been horrible for her family and you... Lots of love to you!!
When was your happiest moment??
Where were you??
What did you see??
What did you taste??
What did you hear??
What did you feel??
Let me know...I'm nosy that way...LOL...
And Lisa...thank you for the tidbit of information...I am very thankful my doctors and nurses put me on antibotics right away...that must have been horrible for her family and you... Lots of love to you!!
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thinking of something...
You know how much I love kids...and most of you know that I can't have anymore and it kills me that I can't! So, I'm thinking of adopting... I have always felt the need to do something for someone else...and I think that this could be it! I know that I have a LONG and HARD road ahead of me...but in the end...the outcome is going to be wonderful!! With me being single and divorced, I know my chances are few and far between...but I will never know unless I try! Love to all of you!
Friday, January 22, 2010
Today...
Today will always be a special day in my heart. It would have been mine and Jeff's 10th anniversary. But now, it's special in another way... Today is her baby brother Ryan's 2nd birthday!! She is so excited to go to his birthday party tomorrow!! She hates that she doesn't see him every day...but that's okay because she does get to see him when she goes to her Jeff's. Most of the time when she goes over there for the night, he has him and she plays up a storm with him and gets to love on him like crazy! They watch movies and play like there's no tomorrow!! But, when it's time for her to come home...when Jeff drops her off...he just cries and cries!! And then that makes her cry....and then she makes me cry....non-stop crying for a couple of hours in our house every other weekend....
Well...I hope everyone has a great weekend!! Our day is packed full tomorrow... I've got to take her to meet Shanna for Ryan's birthday party...then we have a housewarming party for my cousin Becky...plus it's her daughter's 3rd birthday party...two parties in one...GREAT idea!!! So...have a great one...I know I will!!
Well...I hope everyone has a great weekend!! Our day is packed full tomorrow... I've got to take her to meet Shanna for Ryan's birthday party...then we have a housewarming party for my cousin Becky...plus it's her daughter's 3rd birthday party...two parties in one...GREAT idea!!! So...have a great one...I know I will!!
Monday, January 4, 2010
We made it...
Well...we made it through the first year of daddy being gone. The past two weeks were NOTHING like last year!! Last year, the day after Christmas, we were making funeral arrangements for daddy...this year...we all hung out at the house and did nothing! Christmas Eve was rough for us...after we got home from Steven and Jill's for the annual Kilgore Christmas, I finally got Karson to bed and Bryan brought in what he made her...
(I took this picture with my BlackBerry...so please excuse the fuzziness... My dad would be SO PROUD of Bryan for making this for her. He did it all...except for the staining and top coat...I helped with that...)
Mom, Bryan and I breakdown that night after she went to bed...but...we needed it... Everyone called or texted throughout the day checking on us and we were VERY thankful we have so many people who love us and thought of us that day... But, we needed it...and it helped get us through Christmas Day... I will never forget what Karson told my mom a little over a year ago...and I know that I've referenced it elsewhere on my blog...so hang in there with me while I repeat it again..."Nanna, Jesus couldn't have gotten a better birthday present than my PawPaw!" She was so sweet when she said it...with tears rolling down her face...
Anyway...we made it through the Holidays... Thank you again for all of the support each of you have given us through this past year! It is because of yall and God that we made it through with as little speed bumbs as we have had... Thank you...we love all of you!!
(Karson's surprise from Santa: she loves this thing!! And has learned to do tricks on it...LOL)
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