Thinking of something...

You know how much I love kids...and most of you know that I can't have anymore and it kills me that I can't! So, I'm thinking of adopting... I have always felt the need to do something for someone else...and I think that this could be it! I know that I have a LONG and HARD road ahead of me...but in the end...the outcome is going to be wonderful!! With me being single and divorced, I know my chances are few and far between...but I will never know unless I try! Love to all of you!

Today...

Today will always be a special day in my heart. It would have been mine and Jeff's 10th anniversary. But now, it's special in another way... Today is her baby brother Ryan's 2nd birthday!! She is so excited to go to his birthday party tomorrow!! She hates that she doesn't see him every day...but that's okay because she does get to see him when she goes to her Jeff's. Most of the time when she goes over there for the night, he has him and she plays up a storm with him and gets to love on him like crazy! They watch movies and play like there's no tomorrow!! But, when it's time for her to come home...when Jeff drops her off...he just cries and cries!! And then that makes her cry....and then she makes me cry....non-stop crying for a couple of hours in our house every other weekend....

Well...I hope everyone has a great weekend!! Our day is packed full tomorrow... I've got to take her to meet Shanna for Ryan's birthday party...then we have a housewarming party for my cousin Becky...plus it's her daughter's 3rd birthday party...two parties in one...GREAT idea!!! So...have a great one...I know I will!!

We made it...

Well...we made it through the first year of daddy being gone. The past two weeks were NOTHING like last year!! Last year, the day after Christmas, we were making funeral arrangements for daddy...this year...we all hung out at the house and did nothing!

Christmas Eve was rough for us...after we got home from Steven and Jill's for the annual Kilgore Christmas, I finally got Karson to bed and Bryan brought in what he made her...

(I took this picture with my BlackBerry...so please excuse the fuzziness... My dad would be SO PROUD of Bryan for making this for her. He did it all...except for the staining and top coat...I helped with that...)

Mom, Bryan and I breakdown that night after she went to bed...but...we needed it... Everyone called or texted throughout the day checking on us and we were VERY thankful we have so many people who love us and thought of us that day... But, we needed it...and it helped get us through Christmas Day... I will never forget what Karson told my mom a little over a year ago...and I know that I've referenced it elsewhere on my blog...so hang in there with me while I repeat it again..."Nanna, Jesus couldn't have gotten a better birthday present than my PawPaw!" She was so sweet when she said it...with tears rolling down her face...

Anyway...we made it through the Holidays... Thank you again for all of the support each of you have given us through this past year! It is because of yall and God that we made it through with as little speed bumbs as we have had... Thank you...we love all of you!!

(Karson's surprise from Santa: she loves this thing!! And has learned to do tricks on it...LOL)