Karson...

Last night I was on my way to take Behr (Karson's dog) out before bed and I noticed a piece of paper on the bar with Karson's stuff that was fold and worn... I opened it thinking that it was going to be some homework that she's been carrying around in her clipboard (yes, she has a neon lime green clipboard - to keep her organized...LOL), anyway...I opened it and it was a letter to my dad.

As most of you know, my dad passed away on December 24, 2008 at 6:19 p.m. Me, Mom, Bryan (brother), Angie (sister), Aunt Judy, MeeMaw, Keith, and Uncle Ronnie were all there with him when he drew his last breath... That is something that I will never forget as long as I live...

I read the letter that was written to him and it brought tears to my eyes...just as it is now... It said how much she missed him. And that we were going to the gravesite to "see" him in the next few days to take him something...we had new flowers to put on it... It talked about how she wished he could have seen her open her gifts Christmas morning... She told him that she got a couple of Webkinz, some Wii games, a new purse with $100 bill in it, some clothes, etc. She told him all she got for Christmas the Christmas he passed away... I have the sweetest daughter anyone could ask for! And she's just as sweet as the day we brought her home from the hospital...

I haven't had a cry in a LONG time...and I think that today is going to be that day... I love and miss you dearly Dad... I will always be your Peanut and a Daddy's Girl...

...ME...

Well...

I have a birthday coming up...and it's a pretty big one...I'll be......drumroll please......

35!!!!

And I am so ready for it!! Karson told me last summer after she had her 9th birthday this:

"Mom, did you realize that next summer when I turn 10...you will be 35!!!"

She laughed...I turned pale as if I had just seen a ghost...LOL... Then...it hit me like a ton of bricks...BRING IT ON!!!

So...in 11 days from today...I will be 35...and I can't wait... I'm planning a HUGE 40th party...so everyone who knows and loves me will be there!! I think that for this year (if Jeff doesn't have Karson), that we will just go out to eat...and if he does have Karson...I'm sure I'll hang out at the house and then we will go out to eat after she gets home Sunday...

Ta ta for now...